When the composition 'Atahualpa Yupanqui' arrived in the Fall of 2005, I knew I had reached the point I had aimed at in Paris thirty years earlier. The music also arrived just two weeks before my reconnection with the traditional medicine ceremonies of the Amazon, and I felt a strong connection between this creative wave and the engagement with the intelligence of Nature that these ceremonies are aimed at enhancing.
I also underwent a shift in approach that was like arriving at the ocean I had glimpsed thirteen years earlier. I found the capacity to be free from my own or anyone else's judgements in a way that was not just intellectual, but complete. This liberation was elating, and was permanent in the same way that finding out there is no Santa Claus cannot be undone once one learns it.
I now percieve a creative art as having only two facets, not three. In music, for example, one normally considers what one is doing as either composing, playing a composition, or improvising - this is what is available to do. I now see that all improvising is composing, and therefore I can either play a composition, or I compose.... only that!